Does anyone else have living dream nightmares?

2017-03-16T02:10:07-04:00

Response by SSG Laurie Mullen made Mar 16 at 2017 2:14 AM

2017-03-16T02:14:59-04:00

You mean dreams that have a reality type quality to them? You may sleep for eight hours, but because of the dreams you wake up more tired than before you went to bed? Yup. That's when I know my thyroid numbers are off.

Response by PO3 Aaron Hassay made Mar 16 at 2017 2:18 AM

2017-03-16T02:18:10-04:00

I have a hard time sleeping. My dreams are a bit empty or confusing ambiguous missing. There is a bit of fog. I suppose the VA really does not care. They say I have an anxiety disorder from service connected at 0%. That should not surprise anyone I suppose. I never knew why I was homeless for a large chunk of my childhood. My dad became ill by my 8th Bday. After I finished enlistment my dad was discovered a Vietnam Combat Vet. I realized I was a vietnam combat vet child. Where was the VA? Then they rated me anxiety disorder based on many things that happened on that ship I served on 0%. I have not worked in over a decade. I get in fights with people. My master chief on the ship really f-r--eaking did some bad things to me that I know he would never do to his son. Yes I have watched Veterans day lonely sleeping in cars. The VA. Then citizens tell me they care. Thank You for your service. Shoot. The VA. Humanity. Reality. It is really interesting. It is hard to move on when I trust all I get is the VA questioning me more and saying wait wait wait wait.

Response by PO3 Aaron Hassay made Mar 16 at 2017 2:31 AM

2017-03-16T02:31:14-04:00

It is very interesting but now I get to experience as a child being sort of bummed out target of being poor living in shelters and sharing rooms in houses while other kids had seemingly a dad and stability around me. I did not know my dad was a vietnam combat vet. I guess the VA was not keen on any outreach programs to notify depenedents of vietnam combat vets who went destitute struggling because their father became ill from vietnam service injuries after service.

Then my adulthood will be marked by strong poverty as my mom passed away watching me struggle with some crazy things I had to deal with and get mental health issues from on the ship like a dude trying to have sex with me to just give you an idea of many other insane stupid things I had to deal on the FFG.

Regardless people say thank you for your service in their nice suits and ties as I sit sort of confused 40 years old where did all my dreams go as a young man 18?

I was a varsity athlete. I was also awarded meritorious e1 e2 GreatLakes Chicago 1994 before I was assigned that ship.

Then the VA says thank you for your service service connected me anxiety 0%.

They know I have been dealing with poverty for over 2 decade averaged out on my SSDI income records show.

I am on SSDI already for anxiety disorder $900 is my only living standard.

I am stunned.

I wonder if I am alone???

I was engaged 19 before crazy crap on that ship started happening.

Response by SFC George Smith made Mar 16 at 2017 10:50 AM

2017-03-16T10:50:36-04:00

maybe I should Pay attention to what they are saying... but I just ignore them...

Response by Cpl Justin Goolsby made Mar 16 at 2017 11:00 AM

2017-03-16T11:00:32-04:00

Honestly, I'm slightly confused by your question and your subsequent responses did not alleviate my confusion. Are you referring to actual bad dreams, or are you asking if people have had bad things actually happen to them?

I've had many bad dreams, some more real than others.