Letter from an NCO: What do the NCOs think of this?

Tonight is another night that I can not rest. My anxiety is keeping me awake. The reason for that is because though everyone of us takes advantage of why we are here, at least once a week in my conscience it haunts me. I am here for one reason really. That is to protect and defend. I know I complain too much sometimes and sometimes I am way too emotional. This is why I am writing this letter to you, my leaders, my mentors. I am not perfect by any means though it hurts that I am not. Today I was inspired by a speech that the senator of California, Arnold Schwarzenegger gave at a college graduation. He said nothing that you accomplish is effortless. He said he had been told all his life that he would never do half the things that he has accomplished. It is all about preserverance. Just like many people in this organization and the world I have dealt with things one couldn't imagine. I do not look for pity nor understanding really. I look for leadership. I need to know how to be a better leader. I want to know how to make soldiers trust me, confide in me. I need to know what I must do to be considered a Leader, a mentor, a Non commissioned officer. One thing I do know is I love being a NCO and that I do not know it all. Effectiveness is probably the most important thing a NCO could posses. I want to empower soldiers, motivate them. I want to mold them. My point is I have let too much stand in my way thus far. I need leaders who will criticize me, who will be blunt and tell me when I falter so that I can mold these civillians into Soldiers, the protectors of our freedoms and liberties. I want to live the creed.
-An NCO
I call it an NCO's request.