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It's been over 3 years... Why can't I still not move on from my past and move on with my life. I will admit I got into trouble, but at that time I was going through major depression from being at Minot AFB. The type of person I am, I bottle everything in and nobody saw that or detected anything. I didn't want to say anything because I didn't want to seem weak. I was a B-52 crew chief and everyone expected you to be tough. I am nowhere near it and didn't want to be judged for being different. The guys in my shop when I first got there hazed the newbies a lot and it just made it worse for me. We were barely allowed to talk unless it was work related. I still remember getting screamed at by ncos just for their amazement. Later down the road things did get better, but by that time I had been there for a year already and the anxiety and depression had already sank in. At one point I was sent to stay in the psych ward at the hospital in Minot. Wouldn't you think I would have been discharged? Well I wasn't and things just went even farther down hill. Still today I look back and wonder If I was treated right. Now I can barely have friends, let alone find a decent job and stay at it. What can I do?
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Life is 10% what happens to you and 90% how you deal with it!
You have to fix this, I can't fix it, YOU have to get this right. Get your mind right A1C David Zent, quit allowing yourself to be the victim. Once you improve your mental, physical and emotional toughness you will be fine - try a tough mudder, get rid of the negativity. Hell, we've all had setbacks and had to deal with situations that were uncomfortable, it is how you deal with it which determines how you move forward.
You have to fix this, I can't fix it, YOU have to get this right. Get your mind right A1C David Zent, quit allowing yourself to be the victim. Once you improve your mental, physical and emotional toughness you will be fine - try a tough mudder, get rid of the negativity. Hell, we've all had setbacks and had to deal with situations that were uncomfortable, it is how you deal with it which determines how you move forward.
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Exactly! You cannot change how you feel about something, but you CAN control how you react to something.
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A1C David Zent I see and hear a tremendous amount of pain in you right now. It can be very difficult to get over trauma. What you have experienced is emotional, not physical, but it makes you physically ill due to various endocrine systems' responses in your body.
I hope you have a psychologist/therapist/counselor you are working with. Since you were hospitalized while on A/D at Minot, your behavioral/mental health issues should be covered by VA both from the standpoint of disability compensation and health care (more important).
If you don't have a provider, go to the closest VAMC, CBOC or Vet Center, and get seen. You really need to have a psychologist/counselor for talk therapy, a psychiatrist for medical management, and in your case, I think perhaps some group work.
Getting over emotional trauma is really a full time job, and if you're not working on it, it's working on you.
If you are ever feeling like things are hopeless, and you may resort to harming yourself, PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE, call the Crisis Line at [login to see] option 1.
http://www.yellowpages.com/north-webster-in/va-medical-center gives a listing of all VA Medical Centers and Clinics near you.
I would suggest that wondering whether you were treated right is an irrelevant question for you right now. The question you need to ask is are you getting the treatment you need NOW?
I make myself available for tele-health counseling of veterans. Please reach out to me off line if you'd like to talk with me; I can meet over Skype, Google Hangouts and regular telephone (I don't do Apple, so no Facetime).
Whatever you do, please don't give up. There are lots of resources out there for you and lots of people who want to see you beat this. If we talk, I can advise you on VA benefits, as well as help you with your issues.
Please be in touch...
I hope you have a psychologist/therapist/counselor you are working with. Since you were hospitalized while on A/D at Minot, your behavioral/mental health issues should be covered by VA both from the standpoint of disability compensation and health care (more important).
If you don't have a provider, go to the closest VAMC, CBOC or Vet Center, and get seen. You really need to have a psychologist/counselor for talk therapy, a psychiatrist for medical management, and in your case, I think perhaps some group work.
Getting over emotional trauma is really a full time job, and if you're not working on it, it's working on you.
If you are ever feeling like things are hopeless, and you may resort to harming yourself, PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE, call the Crisis Line at [login to see] option 1.
http://www.yellowpages.com/north-webster-in/va-medical-center gives a listing of all VA Medical Centers and Clinics near you.
I would suggest that wondering whether you were treated right is an irrelevant question for you right now. The question you need to ask is are you getting the treatment you need NOW?
I make myself available for tele-health counseling of veterans. Please reach out to me off line if you'd like to talk with me; I can meet over Skype, Google Hangouts and regular telephone (I don't do Apple, so no Facetime).
Whatever you do, please don't give up. There are lots of resources out there for you and lots of people who want to see you beat this. If we talk, I can advise you on VA benefits, as well as help you with your issues.
Please be in touch...
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A1C David Zent. LCDR Matlow is a remarkably warm, kind, caring, and resourceful counselor. I would carefully consider his recommendations about how to escape from this persistent dark place . . . pursue a more enjoyable life. Warmest Regards, Sandy
We are here for you A1C David Zent. Please know that you are not alone. Please feel free to reach out to me if you need to talk brother.
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