Do you ever just feel - that you never want to commit suicide and you love the military?

Given all the negative threads - anyone else like me who loves their job, loves the people they work with, and would rather do a 20 mi ruck barefoot vs commit suicide? The Army is awesome and I love it. I wake up daily actually loving my job - and that's after 20 years as a civilian before joining. This is what I was looking for, and I thank God or Buddha or whomever for giving me the opportunity to serve with so many great people.