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Here's another viewpoint:
When I was actively planning my decease, the last thing I wanted was "help", unless somebody could help me do it.
Firmly believing that everybody, especially my wife, would breathe a sigh of relief when I was gone, I let her in on the plan, just so there would be no surprises, and so she would know that I was doing things in a way that nobody else would get hurt, and the life insurance would pay off.
To my astonishment and dismay, she blew up at me and absolutely forbade me to follow through. Since I did (and do) love her, I shelved the plan.
It's now 31 years later. I've just turned 71, and we just had our 49th wedding anniversary. I still struggle with suicidal ideation every day, but it's just one more thing to put up with, along with psoriasis, neuropathy, cataracts and memory loss. I do occasionally find myself curled up in a ball on the floor sobbing, but it passes.
I'm still here; a number of my friends throughout life got off the bus before their stop. I wish I had been able to tell them that at least one person would deeply miss them.
When I was actively planning my decease, the last thing I wanted was "help", unless somebody could help me do it.
Firmly believing that everybody, especially my wife, would breathe a sigh of relief when I was gone, I let her in on the plan, just so there would be no surprises, and so she would know that I was doing things in a way that nobody else would get hurt, and the life insurance would pay off.
To my astonishment and dismay, she blew up at me and absolutely forbade me to follow through. Since I did (and do) love her, I shelved the plan.
It's now 31 years later. I've just turned 71, and we just had our 49th wedding anniversary. I still struggle with suicidal ideation every day, but it's just one more thing to put up with, along with psoriasis, neuropathy, cataracts and memory loss. I do occasionally find myself curled up in a ball on the floor sobbing, but it passes.
I'm still here; a number of my friends throughout life got off the bus before their stop. I wish I had been able to tell them that at least one person would deeply miss them.
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