Dealing with suicide

Corporal Wing,
Seek professional counseling. I know that there is still a lot of stigma attached, but from my own personal experience, you need to see somebody who has had extensive training in this area. Chaplains are a great place to start. (My son is a Navy Reserve Chaplain, I would be glad to get you his contact information if you wish)

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That's a lot to deal with. Seriously. Talk to someone, like a real counselor for yourself. You know this **** is affecting you. Take care of yourself first, you know. Buddy aid (ok, maybe that's an Army term) and if you have any contacts for friends that might need to hear a real voice call. Project 22 is great. I just helped a friend who was almost over the ledge. He's about to get out of rehab but he's on track.

CPL Wing, this may be "out there" because it is so specific and specifically "Spiritual" in nature. I and many others have found help in "realizing our identity" in Christ. A Pastor/Professor/Author by the name of Neil T. Anderson wrote two amazing books back in the 1980's that deal with "identity". The books are "Victory over the Darkness" and "The Bondage Breaker". I can share more info if interested. James Tobin CFMA - [login to see]

This is certainly a difficult situation to be in. We need to be able to shield ourselves (somewhat) from the continued pain and sense of loss. However, we also look to balance that and the potential saving of a life. I have taken to playing guitar, running away from the world for a weekend, but the shear numbers you are experiencing is beyond what I've dealt with. Perhaps, you need to take a break and find that confidant or mirror that you can work with. You obviously care a great deal about others and they would lose out if you simply shut down or walked away. Wish I had a better answer for you........I wish you only the best

To speak with trained professional immediately, all military families can call the numbers listed below, 24/7, free of charge:

The Military Crisis Line (visit the Military Crisis Line Chat or call 800-273-TALK to talk with a crisis counselor)
The DCoE Outreach Center (visit the Real Warriors Campaign Live Chat or call [login to see] to talk with a health resource consultant)

Hopefully you know who you chaplain is and how good they are. Sit down and have a conversation. If they seem to have their head screwed on straight then have more conversations.

Hey
First don't stop talking about it. There are tons of groups that are working on this. Personally I love Team Rubicon, but there is the mission continues, team Red,white and blue and IAVA. I am so sorry for your losses, it sucks, when you find your place tell everyone you know and give back it helps!!

Take it one step at a time, as others have said, you have taken the first step. Please reach out to your chaplains, mental health personnel, Command Master Chief, etc. The people in your unit are your family too, they can help you deal with the losses that you and the whole unit have suffered. There is no shame in asking for help. Your unit family, your personal family and your brothers and sisters here on Rally Point are here to support you. God Bless

Bro', I wish I could give you the magical answer but there isn't one. I had a close friend attempted suicide, being the only medical trained person on the small post I was ordered to respond. According to the doctors I saved her life, the command was so happy they pinned a metal on my chest. Instead of re-enlisting I ETSed out. And lived the life of an untreated PTSD soldier for many years. With all that said, go get help, don't be ashamed, don't think you don't need the help, if you didn't you wouldn't have posted your question. My command fail me for not seeking help for me, so don't think yours will do the right thing. Go to sick call and start the process of healing, trust the doctors, if you get any hassle from your command blow it off, your life is more important then any mission.