Veteran IN NEED OF ASSISTANCE. Please read!*edited*

*Got confirmation from welfare check. Appears to be okay at this point. I hope he realizes that people do care and that this thread will provide a reinforcement to his support, rather than a dissuasion.*


I have posted his story below SGT Robert Rainwater with his permission.

Are there any vets or SMs out there who can offer some advice for his predicament? He is in DIRE, immediate need for assistance. I am unsure about veteran resources.

"Well, Everything has gotten worse. I am fighting deep Depression now and major anger issues on top of the pain i feel thru out my body. I have been fired, wifes come un-glued and drunk or drugged out of her mind most days (prescription med's taken as directed), told me she doesnt love me any more, filed chapter 7 bankrupcy, lost my truck, cancelled my VA apointments because I cant afford the copays. My Social Security Disability Claim is still pending. My Civil Service Medical Retirement Package I had put in prior to being terminated is pending. I cant get unemployment benefits from the state because DFAS wont give California the wage info they need to complete the unemployment app. I am still fighting my former employer through the Merit Systems Protection Board and it looks like I'm going to lose that case "due to lack of evidence." I'm being sued because my wife got into an accident and totaled the guys car and tore him up pretty good health wise. Ive become very paranoid and am afraid to leave my apartment now. I dont trust anyone anymore. That was my biggest weakness so I eliminated it. I've got $55.00 to my name. I once thought and lived by a code of Honor, Integrity and fidelity. Those ways are now gone in me. All thats left is the Mercinary Wolf inside me just waiting to come out. My wife elbowed me in the sternum the other day intentionally and for the first time in 20 years of marriage I felt cold contempt and hate towards her and still do. My faith is waneing now. I dont shower or bath any more. I scrounge for food tidbits were i can find them like a rat. Everything that made me a kind, gentle loving human being is gone. I'm just to tired to do it any more. Here is a funny story for ya. I called the VA yesterday to talk to a shrink because I wanted to blow my brains out. I got put on hold for ten minutes and was finally told by the receptionist that a shrink would call me back within three hours. That was yesterday. I'm still waiting for that call. Well, I thought the irony was funny at least. I've learned that most people talk a lot of game but never deliver. Oh, I sold my pistol today because just the thought and condemplation of "opting out" totally disgusted me. I do want to apologize to Jen Heagy. I promised her a flag for Shon and couldnt deliver. My intent was sincere but no one would help me and i am now basically broke so I cant even buy one. I just want her to know that my heart was in the right place. I now know what Shon might have felt that night when he laid down in front of that train. I cant kill myself because to me that is the one unforgivable sin so I just pray to god now that he would just get it over with and take me out on his terms. It would be my luck he makes me live past 100 or something like that. So for now I'm just waiting for him to grant my prayer. I dont fit here and never did. I was stupid enough to believe that there was hope in a world full of human beings who build themselves up on the backs of people like me. We are our own worse enemies. Thanks for the check up. At least somebody thought about me."