What do you do when you don't care about anything anymore not even life?

SPC Foss, please visit http://www.veteranscrisisline.net. What you are describing is a symptom strongly associated with severe depression. There ARE resources and people who can help, and they are only a phone call away.

Brother you call, email, seek someone who understands. Call the veteran crisis line. Email me I will do what i can to get tou in touch with somebody or I will just listen.

You find a reason. You find a passion. You find life.

It isn't always easy, and sometimes you'll have to fight for it.