When in a crowd, do you find yourself planning for what you would do in an emergency such as if a crazed shooter were to occur?

For someone who is typically armed must times, yes it is always running through my mind. But I don't need to be in a crowd for my mind to work overtime running scenarios. Whether one agrees with our perceived paranoia it is the world we live in.

No matter where I go, I am always aware of my environment. If it means I Google floor plans, locations of exits so be it. Each night, I walk my back yard and the sides the house; no not looking for anyone, it's for anything moved out of place. In the front I walk around my vehicles, I know where everything is in my vehicles and they're parked front facing out.

Restaurants are no different, looking for exits, I avoiding sitting directly by windows if I can avoid it. Stores, parking lots, driving around, I still use my 5's and 25's. I people watch, mannerisms, things out of place or out of the norm. I listen and hear what people say. In a confrontation, what goes thru my mind is how can I end it quickly; there's no shame walking away either. I may be old, not stupid.

In my diminished physical state, I still practice on an old wooden wing chun dummy, I still study pressure points, wrist locks, pressure points, nerve strikes, not including things I can do with a knife. And yes I carry concealed, a primary and a BUG.

Has anybody discussed fireworks?

I'm sitting in my office in my home at about 21:00 local, and notice I'm feeling more and more uneasy. Eventually it dawns on me: the baseball park about 5 clicks away is doing their fireworks show. Lots of HE. You don't hear it at this distance, but you feel it in the thoracic cavity.

My subconscious is saying: "Frack. Those guys down the road are getting hit again. That means that in about 8 minutes, the siren here will go off, and I will have to roll out, get my gear on, grab my equipment, get my squad together and go out and play Soldier for the rest of the night. Frack."