DOD 1994 bibd Ref SAM u MANPOWER REQUIRMENT REPORT.pdf

Naval Reserve Manpower Requirements(Strength in Thousands)

SAM i./ (0.9)

“The Sea and Air Mariner program, a non-prior service accession program inaugurated in FY 1984 to help the Naval Reserve meetits junior enlisted personnel mobilization requirements, is drawing downto maximize the retention of spaces for the more highly trained andskilled veteran personnel. An offshoot of this program, Sea and AirMariner II (SAM II), was developed specifically to place individualsserving two years on Initial Active Duty Training, onboard FFT 1052 class ships. With the cancelation of the FFT program, the SAM IIprogram draws down in FY 1994.”


There is not a day second minute hour that goe by that I cant stop thinking about what happened suicide hospitals ssdi for psych homelessness losing all relationship realities and a VA that wanted to throw you out and denyservices because you were in a SAM enlistment.

I hope for some logical review.

Was I truly one of only 900 SAM enlisted, a program that Navy no longer wanted drawing it down, as I was just entering it with a fresh new 8 yr obligation, just 18, trying to be an officer, in a Navy that had over 500,000 sailors? Know if this is true then only meeting 2 other SAMs ever in that 8 yr enlistment would make sense, when I met them in bootcamp 1994. So its rough, well ill say impossible, to find another sailor who actually had a similar experience...isolation??!! Tougher yet, I was assigned to a FFG for 5 years in this status, and ordered to qualify in everything, with no health care and poverty off the ship, earning compensation averaging 4K a year spread about rent and food off the ship otherwise in suspense holding navy Manuals off ship, ready for possible deployement readiness 24/7 qualifications to meet, and well what about college and study and being calm and collected the original reason i joined the Navy in the first place to be an officer educated smart and find friends. But no my fiance left me by 22. I was confused upset overwhelmed and no other sailor on the ship cared if I was sick and ill and or basically homeless and poverty off the ship, just as long as I returned to duty every month for my average daily ass whooping at sea sea sick sent home every month, the deck sailors undermanned did not care about how I felt or if I was sick, and even if my Navy Army Transfer off the ship was not enough, the never questioned what happened as the transfer never was completed, and my paper work was never even talked about, after my transfer paper work was signed for MEPS to do the transfer which I only recently found out was denied due psych spine musculoskeletal. Well Ill tell you what it will be easy to destroy a young mans life and ambition totally derail him by making him forcing him to believe it is even possible to basically be part of and qualify for and attain and feel calm with all operational occupational situations demands with just part time sporadic duty and compensation and the development of just being 18.

So yea it is about as logical as giving a 18 year old the whole play book to an NFL team telling him to read it at home alone, and then randomly inserting him into the game with full time players monthly for years, in the actual game with no practice, and then sending him home with no medical care health insurance checkups or leadership coaches calling you the next few day to check in, just as long as you basically come back to duty in a few more weeks to play another game and guess what you better read kid! Read that manual, and lose you lunch, and get angry depressed sad like the coldness of the ship that is going to basically beat your ass in a few weeks again and again and again and again for years like 5 years to be exact at sea playing nfl football!

Then you find out your missing father your missing coach the guy that actually could and should care about your life and show you some actual care well he was a vietnam service 1966-68 Army Infantry 11 LIB, and when you went to the VA with such information, all the benefits otherwise available to you like schooling as his dependent were timed out and no longer around to access for you as they basically made you feel a fool as it seemed like what they were saying was well you should of known who he was and applied for that benefit in the time frame.

Well i guess they the va people who told me and wrote me this did not notice that my father was considered incompetent 100% Service Connected and could not raise me due such injury and well no one was aware of such benefits and Vietnam Service members a majority of then never got access to benefits decades after service after many fights to even acknowledge what they were exposed and the injuries associated its exposure and the kids that they had that were never even considered of even found or cared for in any va outreach program that I am aware of.

My dad passed away a few years ago and I still not found a way to get him into a National Cemetery as I am distracted by my own turmoil and all this story. I come from a military family that well was in the streets as a kid and well also in my own navy story told I don’t belong because I was a reservist on an active duty guided missle frigate similar to being told your the wrong sex color religion and do not belong and i would really fall apart, as i needed those close navy relations back then to be good and solid and not hostile just because of my lack of experience on the ship that I did not have enough experience on scared

So yea i get well some kind of emotion that ranges on some color I can not even really see and felt like my life has just went by and I fight so hard.

Respect honor integrity