Does combat cause anyone to struggle with truly believing or questioning how a God could exist?

I think he stated in the Bible that war was not his way and that at some future point we would not engage in war. I think war is based on free will to choose. There do seem to be limits on war and human suffering that we have not yet crossed, the question is, is that due to man or diviine intervention?

The absolute brutality of man turned me away.

I "found Jesus" while I was in the military. I was raised a Catholic, but really delved deep into Christianity when I was deployed. That all changed once my second child was born. She was born very sick with a congenital disease that will cause her pain for the rest of her life, however long that may be. I started questioning my faith. I went to my Christian friends I had been studying the bible with, and I thought they would be the ones to help me overcome my grief, but they all turned away from me because my faith was faltering. That caused me to lose it completely. I no longer believe in a Christian God. I am still a spiritual person, but not the God I had once believed in.

I'm a Geek and a Science Freak. I was Raised by Two Lay Ministers in the Catholic Church. My Opinion is just that. I believe in a God but I don't believe in Religious Dogma about him. I'm a Romantic Too. My Worst Life Changing Experience was probably Mt Pinatubo. Something about Watching the Largest Volcanic Eruption in a Century Danger Close is not an Experience I care to Repeat. There is an Old Military Saying "Hell, I've already been there, I'm Not Going Back"

For a religious person it can either strengthen or diminish their faith. Truthfully, I know that regardless it doesn't matter. There are people that don't care about life and death. These people will always require those who are brave to stand against them.

Any way it goes you will not know the right answer till you die. Choose wisely my friends.

In todays world when we say the word "GOD" people look at us in a different way. I don't read the BIBLE much and in combat we were on patrol and raids so much I don't think I ever had time for the BIBLE but I knew that GOD/JESUS was on my side, I think there is higher power that watches over us and there is a guiding light that guides us to victory some us are just in the wrong places at the wrong time and it is not our time yet. I will tell when in or direct fire with enemy example (T-72 Tank) Desert Storm I was just private in a M109A2 and everything was on my chief and that gunner firing direct fire and without that artillery skill and knowledge and over looking of GOD I don't thing our crew would be here today with "TEAM WORK and GOD". I've been in other situation where I've felt like I was in a black hole during combat operations and not thinking I was not coming out of this alive and some how I am here to speak my vision that GOD has let me live to talk and share about it.