Posted on Jun 5, 2016
CPT Joseph K Murdock
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This post was not started for entertainment but more for suicide awareness. All these songs have commonalities like sadness, darkness, a sense of loss, and desire to throw in the towel. I was there at one point, broken by PTSD and unable to see how to get fixed. If you feel like this, I whole heartedly recommend asking for help instead of throwing in the towel. There exist people who can truly help you. They will pick you up, dust you off, and send you forth into life. So don't quit, keep your head up, and ask for help.

A few years have passed for falling so far down I could not get up with help. I knew my military psychologist so there were a couple times I called to state, "Doc I feel like 5% of a human today." He replied for me to drive in and went to residential a few hours later. I am fine now, however, I still empathize about that lonely soldier who fights the fight of his/her life every night. The lonely and dark nights.



I think this song is apropos to describe how a loved one feels after a suicide, and the eternal sadness they face for the rest of their lives.


https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5anLPw0Efmo

I'm so tired of being here
Suppressed by all my childish fears
And if you have to leave
I wish that you would just leave
'Cause your presence still lingers here
And it won't leave me alone


These wounds won't seem to heal
This pain is just too real
There's just too much that time cannot erase


When you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears
When you'd scream I'd fight away all of your fears
And I held your hand through all of these years
But you still have all of me


You used to captivate me by your resonating light
Now I'm bound by the life you left behind
Your face—it haunts my once pleasant dreams
Your voice—it chased away all the sanity in me


These wounds won't seem to heal
This pain is just too real
There's just too much that time cannot erase


When you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears
When you'd scream I'd fight away all of your fears
And I held your hand through all of these years
But you still have all of me


I've tried so hard to tell myself that you're gone
But though you're still with me
I've been alone all along


When you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears
When you'd scream I'd fight away all of your fears
And I held your hand through all of these years
But you still have all of me
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LTC Stephen C.
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CPT Joseph K Murdock, the song "Suicide is Painless" from the movie MASH (and later the TV series M*A*S*H) is notable in some respects. Ironically, the lyrics were penned in 1969 by Michael Altman (son of MASH movie director, Robert), who was fifteen years old at the time, and naturally, had never seen time in the service, much less combat.
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CPT Joseph K Murdock
CPT Joseph K Murdock
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That was a talented teen boy. We have many genres of songs.
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Kim Bolen RN CCM ACM
Kim Bolen RN CCM ACM
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Spot On!
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CPT Joseph K Murdock
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If any of you are thinking of suicide, please go in for help. Help is available to help you heal from the pain. It worked for me once I identified I had to survive to see better days ahead.
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I think many more of us have been there. It is difficult.
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CPT Joseph K Murdock
CPT Joseph K Murdock
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All I know is that feeling, that feeling of loss is the worst feeling in the world.
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I don't believe there is a song, a poem, etc that can describe what suicide does to the families left behind.
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MSgt John McGowan
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Capt (Join to see) - At times I just got mad at her for that. It something you do not get over. I am sorry for your lost. There was no children involed in my case.
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MSgt John McGowan - The loss is always there. Sorry for each one.
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Col Rebecca Lorraine
Col Rebecca Lorraine
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MSgt John McGowan - Man, I'm so sorry. You must be in pain from losing two.
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CPT Joseph K Murdock
CPT Joseph K Murdock
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I am sorry for all your losses and hope the children can grow up to be healthy adults.
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